Last week felt like the never-ending week. I was afraid it would not end, and crummy things would keep happening. (Please note, these are mostly #FWP crummy things, not horrible things). I was afraid. Afraid that the “bad stuff” would not stop.
Fears. Fear of not finishing an event that I prepared for over six months, and spent over 12 hours the day of the race moving toward the finish line.
Looking at that fear logically, I need to:
- Swim 2.4 miles in 2 hours & 20 minutes. This is a 3:37/100 yard pace. I have this in the bag.
- Bike 112 miles by 6:20 PM. That’s 12.44 mph. Practice how to change a flat, and I can do this.
- Run a marathon by midnight. Run at a 13:30 pace and I can do this.
Sometimes you have to take a step back to figure out how to move forward.
In the end, I decided that I can only control what I can, and to work on those things. And to try not to worry about the stuff beyond my control. Lists are becoming good. And research. Breaking down my fear of not finishing Ironman becomes a lot less worrisome when I look at it from the perspective of the individual events and the paces required for each one.
What have you been afraid of? How do you address your fears?